b|ack fRi is indeeD blacK..

haf u ever had a day when u thought everything and everyone is agst u? that nothing has gone in the right way for u? i had mine today..

it's black fri today.. ye.. the fri after thanksgiving really is known as black fri.. while it means mad shopping sales for the americans.. it simply means a disastrous day for me.. as in.. tOtallY! disastrous..

got out of my hse.. saw a black cat in front of me.. then it crossed my path.. be it superstitious or wat.. i thot it was a bad omen.. but wateva it is.. i tried not to let it affect me..

then it was astro paper 1st.. it is by far.. the most disastrous paper i've ever sat for before.. out of 25 MCQs.. i think i was only certain of getting 5 correct?.. the rest.. well.. do wat i do best.. guessing game.. then short structured qns.. "very short structured".. 25 marks broken down into 6,9,10 marks sub qns while the past yr papers have been 3,4,5 kinda breakdown.. yup.. so if i don't know 1 sub much less to say 2 sub qns.. it's already a gone case for me.. it's the one paper i've ever felt so helpless before.. tried to crap.. yet i don't even haf the stuff to crap.. the only comforting thing is.. i've s/u-ed it.. so if i fail.. it won't affect my overall gpa.. juz that i wasted 1 out of 3 s/u options.. i tot: --waste it? fine.--

then it was 241.. contemporary chinese politics and society.. gotta say this is my most 'well-prepared' paper for this sem.. i actually organised every ans to every single revision qn the tutor gave us.. i thot i was confident for it.. but god knows.. the qns were out of the blue.. as in u won't expect to have those qns for 20 mark essay qns.. cox u simply don't think there's much content to elaborate on.. only used like 10%? of the cheat sheet i prepared.. shows how irrelevant the stuff that i've prepared.. bottom line: no kick after answering those qns.. cox din feel i've applied enough content.. and i felt those qns shldn't be asked cox going by the sllybusof the mod, those r juz minor events compared to other major events that were being taught.. but of cox.. i'm not the setter of the paper.. --not convinced but can do nothing abt it. black fri mindset sets in--

so wanted to watch happy feet.. even though couldn't find anyone to accompany me.. juz couldn't find anyone..but i needed a break.. on the way to jp.. i was in such a hurry(10 mins to the nxt show) that i couldn't stop in time before a kid brushed agst me.. kid fell down, parent pulled him up.. i was stunned and con't walking.. whether he cried or not i don't know.. rushed to the ticket box only to find a long q.. -great. q? no way-

looking back.. i think this is the worst sem i've ever gone thru.. everything was done half-heartedly.. mind was always preoccupied.. much less to say this is supposed to be a slack sem, dang it..

arghx.. everything's agst me.. but black fri shall and will end here.. cox i only haf 1 more paper to go!

-been sleeping at 5 for the past 3 nights.. there was even 1 night that i din sleep at all.. anxiety, stress, thoughts.. yeh.. kept me well occupied that i couldn't sleep.. torturous.