on death..

telephone rang a few times in the morning.. refused to pick up the calls.. my mum was lazy too.. haha..then my hp started ringing.. picked up the call.. my sis asked for my mum in a hurry..nxt she was in shock.. my aunt juz passed away. my mum is only a few yrs younger than her.. and my aunt's gone. suddenly. juz too sudden.

i didn't even see her during cny. didn't manage to meet her at grandma's. not close to her.. but i noe i do haf alot of respect for her cox she practically brght up 3 kids on her own. the 3 cousins whom i'm the closest with among the cousins.

and the weird thing is.. she visited grandma the day before. it's odd. it was a mon and normally we don't visit grandma on wkdays. could she haf sensed it, to 见最后一面? but everything was fine..no one saw it coming. in fact she was getting better cox she used be in a worse state of health.

have no idea how they r gonna break the news to my grandma. both of my grandmas 都是白发人送黑发人.. it muz be really tough on them. and this grandma, she's definitely not in any state to receive this kinda news. how is she gonna tk it..

qte shaken by this cox she's really young.. as in too young to go juz like that. 以前见面也很少跟她说话. 现在真的是没机会了.

看到人生的脆弱.谁也说不清自己省下的时间有多少. 总觉得自己还有一大把时间可以耗.但现在想想也未必是. 如果要我现在走，我真的还有事未完成.我应该像每个人所说的一样，要抱握时间，去做想要做的事吗？

-it took me this long
to understand what the heart is for